This was beautiful, and SO HOT. Great job! What strikes me most about this fic is its believability. When I first entered SPN fandom, I had never read or written fanfic before, and I was very interested in slash, but wasn't convinced these characters actually WOULD sleep together, and I spent my first few Sassy-writing months trying to figure out how to make it REAL. I feel like if Dean and Cas were going to sleep together, this is exactly how it would happen. Great characterization, and the angst of Dean's feelings for Cas and about pain... it just went straight to my heart. Loved it. <3